Tuesday, June 28, 2011

To Grey

Introduce yourself! So I can give you a hug. lol (the lol doesn't necessarily mean I'm bluffing)

But seriously dude! You should be proud of yourself - at least to me. Wanting to see me smile supercharges my zest to actually be happy! But again the realist kicks in. And here are my cases.

1. You're actually just a coping mechanism of my mind in that in my need to be noticed, I created an 'other self'. That 'other self' is you and to make the illusion even better is that I and "other self" don't actually know each other. Woah! (should I shift to BS Psych?)

2. You are a supernatural being. All the things I've been experiencing in the dorm for the past few nights are horror-story material. Seriously. So this wouldn't be that hard to believe in.

3. You're an actual living organism. You are actually a real person who actually cares about me.

I can't even give full credit to case no. 3 as I can with the two previous cases. Somehow, I find it oddly very unlikely.

Are we schoolmates? You can at least give me that! (still that would suck. There are thousands here!) Or your sex. I won't take any answer against you. lol.

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  2. I thought i expressed my desire to be forever anonymous (for my identity to remain a mystery for the whole duration of our discourse here) pretty loud and clear. But, I guess with all my nonsense and gibberish, i failed to really get my point across to you - a major setback of having a mindset like mine. (Plus, I guess i just didn't really anticipate you being this persistent. Hah.)

    Well, as much as I need/would love a hug right now, I still stand strong to being "shades of grey", no more no less. just "shades of Grey" (or Grey for short).

    I can't say i'm proud of myself. But i'm happy beyond the limited levels of Serotonin and Dopamine in my system (my geeky and fancy way of expressing my felicity), that i, in my weird and cockamamie ways, am able to make you smile and happy.

    Okay, now let me address those cases that the realist in you presented. Hey, Mr. realist, here's what i think:

    1. I am not just a piece of your consciousness. I'm a distinct entity, with a definite physical form, intellectual complex, and emotional setting. I'm not just a fragment of your being, not your "other self". I'm not an illusion, not an abstract. I'm concrete, tangible. This is not A fantasy, i exist in the context of universal reality. And what's cool about that, and what i want you to realize, is that, i, as an existing entity, am noticing and appreciating every single thing about you. So i guess, i'm one who cares about helping you fulfill your needs, in a way. To probly help you see for yourself how such an amazing person you are. You're not crazy, you're awesome. Should you shift to Psych? Well, you're smart enough and, i believe, you have the capacity to do whatever you want, so the only thing i'd say (again) is just go with whatever makes you happy.

    2. I'm not a supernatural being. I'm not a ghost. (Why do i feel like i'm starting to scare you/creep you out. Sorry). Now i'm just intrigued, what sort of creepy stuff have you been experiencing in that dormitory? You know, talking about it, verbalizing, makes things less scary. Here's the explanation: You're afraid of the supernatural, because it is something unfamiliar, something you're uncertain of. So by constantly verbalizing your fear, through maximal naming, you get to somehow assert a nearness between you and the supernatural, effectively reducing your fear. That's basically how literature started in the old days, as a way of knowing and conquering the unknown through language, words.

    3. YES, i'm an actual living thing. Kingdom Animalia, Phylum Chordata, Class Mammalia, Order Primates, Family Hominidae, Genus Homo, Species Sapiens. I am a human being. But more importantly, YES, i care about you. And yeah, it's quite expected that you'd be skeptical about my subsistence, but believe it or not, i exist.

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  3. I have my own apprehensions, fears that prevent me from revealing my identity. One, for example, is how knowing, "knowledge", can be a very potent factor in the corruption of things. And... obviously, i'd do anything to prevent that from happening.

    But just to show you that i really do care about you, i'm giving you a chance to get to know whatever you want to know about me. Ask me 3 questions, and i'll answer them with all honesty. But here's the catch, you can't ask what my name is, or where i'm from, or how i know you, but you can ask how the weather is, or what time is it, or what's the shortest way from this to that. Basically, you can't ask ANYTHING ABOUT ME (i shouldn't be the subject of the query). The point is for you to ask questions that, well, won't directly help you figure out my identity but will at least give you a hint as to the context of my existence. So it's up to you to figure out how that'll work out to your advantage/ what sort of questions will serve that purpose. Oh, and I'll answer your questions only if i really know the answer (no googling of answers, i promise. Hah.)

    Three questions. Ask wisely.

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  4. 1. Have we talked (in person) before?

    2. How did you find me?

    3. For the third question, I'll rather you make it and answer it. This is the best time to say a question you would want me to ask.

    Please. I've been through a lot. A lot of unimaginable situation. Whatever you are won't corrupt me. It can shock me but not change the way I think about you. =))
    For the record : this is fuuuun!!!

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  5. Are these really your questions? You sure about that? I was thinking more like this:

    You: Who is the current headmaster of the school i'm in right now? (just random.)
    Me: [insert answer here, assuming i know the answer].
    Then with my answer, you'll figure out if i am going to the same school as you or maybe i've been to your school and i'm familiar enough to facts related to it or something like that (since i forbid my self from fooling you by pretending i don't know the answer or by googling for the answer and claiming that i know it by heart). I don't know.

    (Though i must admit, question 3's a smart move - just a slip of the tongue, a stupid move and my whole disguise/shady persona will be shattered. Good job.)

    Oh, number 2 is an invalid question based on our criteria. It's just a rephrasing of "how do you know me?" which i even used as an example of those you shouldn't ask. Basically, your questions cannot contain the words "you" or "we" (and i know you're smart, how wise you can be- you'd probly come up with some grammatical syntax wherein you don't have to mention "you" or "we" but still imply the sense... NO. I think you get what i mean. Hah). You cannot ask something directly about or concerning me.

    Come on, i know you're better than that (not to taunt, but to encourage you). Ask again.

    You say that knowing my identity won't change the way you think about me. I'm just wondering, what exactly do you think about me at this point?

    And definitely, I'm glad (well, BEYOND GLAD, but i think you got my point) that you're having fun.

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  6. That is so not me. I don't use Blogger, okay? =)))

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  7. leabolante just proved herself not guilty, Leo. One less suspect for you. One down, how many more to go? I hope that helps. Hah.

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  9. After about three days of what i thought would be my last post/comment here, i'm back. And the reason of my return is quite.. it's weird, but yeah, i'm used to being weird.

    Basically, I noticed the MAKE NEW FRIENDS (facebook and twitter link) part of your page just now (i feel stupid. i mean, why haven't i noticed those blue boxes on the side of your page with "facebook" and "twitter" written [in a fancy sort of font] on them?!?! Seriously.), and i clicked both links. I hate coming out as a stalker, and just to make things clear, i'm not a creepy stalker and all that. So yeah, on your twitter page, i saw one post with "shades of grey" in it (which actually made me smile, without even reading the whole post.) And I just can't help but ask about that tweet of yours:

    June 28,
    " =(((( shades of grey: I WILL HUG YOU IF I CAN! ESPECIALLY IF YOUR HOT. lol"

    Well, i don't know really what to ask. What's your ideal "hot" person maybe? Hah. Kidding. I guess it's just nice to know that you're talking about me in (what i hope is) a good way (I just took that post as a complement. I hope you don't mind. Hah).

    But then again, that's not what this post is all about. I actually just want to ask how you're doing, and asking about that tweet of yours was the perfect avenue for me to ease my way into it. Hah. So, how's everything? How are you?

    I hope you're doing great. And i hope you're still smiling.

    Just know that whenever you need a friend, just look up to the sky, call my name, and i'll come falling down from the heavens. Hah. But yeah, in all seriousness, whenever you need a crazy person who'll just listen to you and stay by your side no matter what, i'm just here. Always here for you.

    And Leo, thank you for putting up with my eccentricity with such a sense of wit and humor. You're awesome.

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